Many should know that I've been transferred to another CG. My new CG is W220. This is the 3rd week that I'm going to be with them. Well, I really thank God for this group of young people! They are such nice people who made me really comfortable in there.
Finally their very mature Bro, Kelvin came back from Thailand. Wow! I was really impressed when I saw him on Sat during CGM. I really feel that the whole CG united again because of him. He really sat the CG down and set rules for everyone. I was so challenged to have to memorise everyone's HP no. It was a great challenge though. I managed to get everyone's no. by hard on the way to church yesterday. Hopefully the no. are still in my mind. Ha!
Anyway, seeing him so in love with God and His people really makes me feel that I don't love God and His people enough. I was a little discouraged about myself. Felt a little inadequate. However, I thank God for His encouragement through Eunice and His Word for me in Isaiah 43.
Now, I'm more determined to work together with this wonderful group of people. I am secure in who I am in God too! I believe God will move powerfully through W220!!
P/S: Don't get me wrong. I still love W140!!! ;)
Monday, December 20, 2004
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Jesus is the Minister of the true sanctuary!
Hey! I've been trying very hard to blog about what I learnt on Wed BS. However, my computer doesn't seem to like me blog.. I typed halfway through on Wed night and my computer hang. I pray that I'll be able to finish what I want to say and have a good fellowship time with God later!
Well, we rushed through the quick summary of the previous lesson before starting on lesson proper. Bro Kim Hock taught so fast that many of us were lost. Some were so lost that they lost interest in the lesson. However, I thanked God that I remained focused in listening and catching whatever that I can from him. Bro Kin Hock went a little off halfway through and started sharing about his mission trip to China a few weeks ago. Wow! I could sense his excitement as he shared. I could also identify with the kind of excitement that he had because that was the kind of excitement that we've been feeling since last week. Bro Kim Hock said, "There is excitement when you know you are in the will of God." Wow wow wow!!! I'm in the will of God!!
How many of us have our own favorite preacher?? How many have ever made comments like, "Oh, this week Pastor Kong is not preaching, I doubt I'll ever learn anything from this pastor who is preaching." Or rather, "I prefer Pastor so & so to preach instead of this." Ha! I was once guilty of that. Do you know that Jesus is the one who is actually ministering instead of the person who is preaching? Jesus is the Minister of the true sanctuary!!!! No matter how boring a service or BS may be? Jesus is the One who is ministering. We'll still learn something from that "boring" sermon!! We'll still catch something in the Spirit!! So no matter who is preaching, I always prepare my heart to get ready for the message and Jesus will minister to me and bless me!!
Another thing that I've learnt is why we are called OVERCOMERS! God knows that there are lots of challenges in life that we have to go through. So He made all of us OVERCOMERS. To overcome all our problems. We all have the ability to overcome, but are we using that ability given to us? I looked back at my past and realised how many "mountains" I'd overcomed and I'm still overcoming. Each time I walk over one, I will rejoice and know that another one is coming! Though there are never ending problems to be solved, I know that I grow stronger each time I overcome. There's a sense of satisfaction and victory. Many times there are struggles and we met problems because our will is clashing with God's will. However, when we learnt to let go and let God and say, "God, let your will be done and not mine." God will help us overcome and we walked through that victoriously again. I like what Bro Kim Hock said, " I rather suffer now, overcome the problems, when we come to the Great Tribulation, I can stand strong and firm. Than, keep siam-ing all my life and when we come to the Great Tribulation and DIE!"
Ha! How true that is!!! So many people have been running away from their problems and never get to solve their problems. So they never get to grow stronger at all. So when things happen all of a sudden, they wavered, collapsed or even have thoughts of leaving church. Our God works in contrary to how the world works. God wants us to keep overcoming every single challenge in our lives so that we can keep on building up on our own faith in God so that we are ready for whatever that comes in out way. In that way, nothing will overwhelm us again. God will never ignore us when we really come to Him with a humble heart, surrendering everything to Him. I'll never let my will clash with God's will ever again because I love Him and I know He loves me too!
Well, we rushed through the quick summary of the previous lesson before starting on lesson proper. Bro Kim Hock taught so fast that many of us were lost. Some were so lost that they lost interest in the lesson. However, I thanked God that I remained focused in listening and catching whatever that I can from him. Bro Kin Hock went a little off halfway through and started sharing about his mission trip to China a few weeks ago. Wow! I could sense his excitement as he shared. I could also identify with the kind of excitement that he had because that was the kind of excitement that we've been feeling since last week. Bro Kim Hock said, "There is excitement when you know you are in the will of God." Wow wow wow!!! I'm in the will of God!!
How many of us have our own favorite preacher?? How many have ever made comments like, "Oh, this week Pastor Kong is not preaching, I doubt I'll ever learn anything from this pastor who is preaching." Or rather, "I prefer Pastor so & so to preach instead of this." Ha! I was once guilty of that. Do you know that Jesus is the one who is actually ministering instead of the person who is preaching? Jesus is the Minister of the true sanctuary!!!! No matter how boring a service or BS may be? Jesus is the One who is ministering. We'll still learn something from that "boring" sermon!! We'll still catch something in the Spirit!! So no matter who is preaching, I always prepare my heart to get ready for the message and Jesus will minister to me and bless me!!
Another thing that I've learnt is why we are called OVERCOMERS! God knows that there are lots of challenges in life that we have to go through. So He made all of us OVERCOMERS. To overcome all our problems. We all have the ability to overcome, but are we using that ability given to us? I looked back at my past and realised how many "mountains" I'd overcomed and I'm still overcoming. Each time I walk over one, I will rejoice and know that another one is coming! Though there are never ending problems to be solved, I know that I grow stronger each time I overcome. There's a sense of satisfaction and victory. Many times there are struggles and we met problems because our will is clashing with God's will. However, when we learnt to let go and let God and say, "God, let your will be done and not mine." God will help us overcome and we walked through that victoriously again. I like what Bro Kim Hock said, " I rather suffer now, overcome the problems, when we come to the Great Tribulation, I can stand strong and firm. Than, keep siam-ing all my life and when we come to the Great Tribulation and DIE!"
Ha! How true that is!!! So many people have been running away from their problems and never get to solve their problems. So they never get to grow stronger at all. So when things happen all of a sudden, they wavered, collapsed or even have thoughts of leaving church. Our God works in contrary to how the world works. God wants us to keep overcoming every single challenge in our lives so that we can keep on building up on our own faith in God so that we are ready for whatever that comes in out way. In that way, nothing will overwhelm us again. God will never ignore us when we really come to Him with a humble heart, surrendering everything to Him. I'll never let my will clash with God's will ever again because I love Him and I know He loves me too!
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Thank YOU, JESUS!
I just want to take some time to thank God for everyone around me. Also, I thank all of YOU out there who has blessed my life tremendously. If I didn't mention your name, doesn't mean I forgot about you. Why am I doing this all of a sudden?? Hmm... I don't know. Just felt led to take some time to thank God and YOU wonderful folks. It's Christmas and it's a time for thanksgiving!! I may not be celebrating Christmas with many of YOU but YOU are always in my heart!
1. I thank my DEAR Eunice for bringing me to church. Thank YOU so much for getting me to know God and to get me to fulfill my destiny in God. No amount of thanks will ever express my gratitude and love towards you. My Dearest Dearest! Love YOU lots!
2. I thank my dearest Huiling for guiding, teaching and loving me all these while. We've gone through much things together. Thank YOU for always believing in me!! Love YOU lots too!
3. I thank my dearest Deb for always being there for me. Thank YOU all these while for blessing me and making sure that I don't go hungry. YOU've been a good PA to me. Be a good PA to God too! Love YOU lots too!
4. I thank my dearest Ying for always being there for me and praying for me. Thank YOU for blessing me in my times of needs and never fail to encourage me when I feel discouraged. Love YOU lots too!
5. I thank my dearest W140 for growing and learning together as a family. Thank YOU guys for making the walk with God meaningful. It's never fun to walk alone with God all the time. God gives us families and spiritual families so that we can all walk together. Love YOU lots!!!
6. I thank my dearest Yaqi and Baoting for being such wonderful friends all these years. They are part of the "accomplices" that "psycho" me to church back in the year 2000. I'll never be around in City Harvest if not for this SAJC gang! Love YOU lots!
I've got one nice picture of Yaqi and I which I can't miss putting it up!
7. I thank Hern for blessing me though we haven't known each other for long. Thank YOU for getting your uncle to help me fix my comp FOC! I treasure our friendship! I haven't taken a picture with YOU. So, I'll just put a picture of the gift that YOU've given to me. Let's get HOOKED ON JESUS together! Love YOU lots!
I shall end at number 7 since it's the perfect number! The MOST MOST IMPORTANT person I want to thank is JESUS!!! Thank YOU for dying for me and washing away all my sins. Thank YOU for giving me a purpose in life and blessing me with wonderful people around me. I LOVE YOU LOTS LOTS LOTS!!!
1. I thank my DEAR Eunice for bringing me to church. Thank YOU so much for getting me to know God and to get me to fulfill my destiny in God. No amount of thanks will ever express my gratitude and love towards you. My Dearest Dearest! Love YOU lots!
2. I thank my dearest Huiling for guiding, teaching and loving me all these while. We've gone through much things together. Thank YOU for always believing in me!! Love YOU lots too!
3. I thank my dearest Deb for always being there for me. Thank YOU all these while for blessing me and making sure that I don't go hungry. YOU've been a good PA to me. Be a good PA to God too! Love YOU lots too!
4. I thank my dearest Ying for always being there for me and praying for me. Thank YOU for blessing me in my times of needs and never fail to encourage me when I feel discouraged. Love YOU lots too!
5. I thank my dearest W140 for growing and learning together as a family. Thank YOU guys for making the walk with God meaningful. It's never fun to walk alone with God all the time. God gives us families and spiritual families so that we can all walk together. Love YOU lots!!!
6. I thank my dearest Yaqi and Baoting for being such wonderful friends all these years. They are part of the "accomplices" that "psycho" me to church back in the year 2000. I'll never be around in City Harvest if not for this SAJC gang! Love YOU lots!
I've got one nice picture of Yaqi and I which I can't miss putting it up!
7. I thank Hern for blessing me though we haven't known each other for long. Thank YOU for getting your uncle to help me fix my comp FOC! I treasure our friendship! I haven't taken a picture with YOU. So, I'll just put a picture of the gift that YOU've given to me. Let's get HOOKED ON JESUS together! Love YOU lots!
I shall end at number 7 since it's the perfect number! The MOST MOST IMPORTANT person I want to thank is JESUS!!! Thank YOU for dying for me and washing away all my sins. Thank YOU for giving me a purpose in life and blessing me with wonderful people around me. I LOVE YOU LOTS LOTS LOTS!!!
Monday, December 13, 2004
My singing journey...
Hi all! I'm back again! I guessed I've grown to like blogging. It's a tool for me to write down my thoughts so that I can keep reminding myself what God has done for me. It's wonderful, and it's totally amazing what God has done for me this whole year.
I guess I need to clear the air of a question which most people will ask whenever they see me in church. Just yesterday alone, I was asked the question more than 4 times. A lot of people has been asking why I've not been singing on stage, or they'll see me and thought I was singing for the services. Well, if you asked me a month ago, my answer would have been, I don't know how to explain. I'm just not singing. Why? I do not know. However, now I have the confidence to answer the question! I have not been singing ever since I came back from Israel. It was a long 6 months' break. It was a terrible wait, not knowing if I'm still considered to be in the ministry. There was so much uncertainty and doubt within me. I've been left on the shelf because Sis Belle feels that I need to build up on my spiritual capacity. God knows I have to build my walk right with Him first before bringing me back. It was a humbling process. She conducted a few practices for a few of us and reminded us of the Potter and the clay story. Indeed, we are the clay that God is moulding. Whenever God feels that we are not in good shape, He'll put us through the burning furnance to purify us and to mould us into shape. However, when that is done and something is still not quite right, He'll leave us on the shelf. That's the humbling process. A time to develop patience and to keep trusting and believing that He is with us and will use us one day. Many times, it is when we let go of ourselves and say that God, I leave everything into your hands, that God will begin to take us off the shelf to use us. I can testify of this.
I can still remember the time when I went for my 1st choir audition. I was a little nervous. Everything was alright until I stepped out of my house to go for the audition. I started to sneeze and had a very bad flu. My nose was blocked and my countenance was very very bad. I failed the audition. It was a very disheartening moment because I know that's what I like to do and what God wants me to do. I couldn't understand why all that happened. It was a time of knowing that God has His perfect timing for everything to happen. It was also a time that God wants to know if I'm really willing to sing for Him no matter what happens and whether I can keep trusting that this is His calling for me. To cut the long story short, I was very sure this is what God has called me to do. So I went for my 2nd audition about 1 year later with a heart of knowing that if it's God's timing, I'll get in. I just let go of myself and let God do whatever that is pleasing to Him. True enough, that was His timing and I got in. Miraculously, I got into the BV ministry in the next 6 months. Why is it miraculous? Well, at that time there was a "rule" that said I had to be in choir for at least a year before I qualify to go for the BV audition. All and all, God is just great! It is great to know that everything will just go according to the will of God and His timing.
It is a wonderful journey living as a Christian. A journey of letting go of ourselves and lifting everything up to Him. Bit by bit I learned and leaps by leaps I move. After all the long introduction, I'm coming to my main point. I thank God that after being left on the shelf for so long, He is still my faithful God who will never let me down. After the practices with Sis Belle, there will be 2 outcomes. 1: Remain in BV ministry. 2: Go back to Choir ministry. I called Sis Belle yesterday and was assured that I'm still in the BV ministry. Actually I don't mind serving in choir as well because I'll still be singing for Him. However, I was excited because I know in can impact MORE lives when I sing as a BV. So I'll be back on stage again next year. 2004 is coming to an end. And I believe it's gonna end with a BIG BANG!
I guess I need to clear the air of a question which most people will ask whenever they see me in church. Just yesterday alone, I was asked the question more than 4 times. A lot of people has been asking why I've not been singing on stage, or they'll see me and thought I was singing for the services. Well, if you asked me a month ago, my answer would have been, I don't know how to explain. I'm just not singing. Why? I do not know. However, now I have the confidence to answer the question! I have not been singing ever since I came back from Israel. It was a long 6 months' break. It was a terrible wait, not knowing if I'm still considered to be in the ministry. There was so much uncertainty and doubt within me. I've been left on the shelf because Sis Belle feels that I need to build up on my spiritual capacity. God knows I have to build my walk right with Him first before bringing me back. It was a humbling process. She conducted a few practices for a few of us and reminded us of the Potter and the clay story. Indeed, we are the clay that God is moulding. Whenever God feels that we are not in good shape, He'll put us through the burning furnance to purify us and to mould us into shape. However, when that is done and something is still not quite right, He'll leave us on the shelf. That's the humbling process. A time to develop patience and to keep trusting and believing that He is with us and will use us one day. Many times, it is when we let go of ourselves and say that God, I leave everything into your hands, that God will begin to take us off the shelf to use us. I can testify of this.
I can still remember the time when I went for my 1st choir audition. I was a little nervous. Everything was alright until I stepped out of my house to go for the audition. I started to sneeze and had a very bad flu. My nose was blocked and my countenance was very very bad. I failed the audition. It was a very disheartening moment because I know that's what I like to do and what God wants me to do. I couldn't understand why all that happened. It was a time of knowing that God has His perfect timing for everything to happen. It was also a time that God wants to know if I'm really willing to sing for Him no matter what happens and whether I can keep trusting that this is His calling for me. To cut the long story short, I was very sure this is what God has called me to do. So I went for my 2nd audition about 1 year later with a heart of knowing that if it's God's timing, I'll get in. I just let go of myself and let God do whatever that is pleasing to Him. True enough, that was His timing and I got in. Miraculously, I got into the BV ministry in the next 6 months. Why is it miraculous? Well, at that time there was a "rule" that said I had to be in choir for at least a year before I qualify to go for the BV audition. All and all, God is just great! It is great to know that everything will just go according to the will of God and His timing.
It is a wonderful journey living as a Christian. A journey of letting go of ourselves and lifting everything up to Him. Bit by bit I learned and leaps by leaps I move. After all the long introduction, I'm coming to my main point. I thank God that after being left on the shelf for so long, He is still my faithful God who will never let me down. After the practices with Sis Belle, there will be 2 outcomes. 1: Remain in BV ministry. 2: Go back to Choir ministry. I called Sis Belle yesterday and was assured that I'm still in the BV ministry. Actually I don't mind serving in choir as well because I'll still be singing for Him. However, I was excited because I know in can impact MORE lives when I sing as a BV. So I'll be back on stage again next year. 2004 is coming to an end. And I believe it's gonna end with a BIG BANG!
Sunday, December 12, 2004
Something to share...
Although I'm very tired physically, I thank God that my Spirit is very much ALIVE! So here I am, before I go to bed today, I shall share about some revelation. Before I share about what I've caught during the services, I shall talk about my revelation through a conversation with Michelle.
We were having our lunch after the 9a.m. service today. Michelle then mentioned about her having a table but she never uses the table to do work. She'll do things on her bed instead because she's used to that. She just stacked lots of notes on her table. My "light bulb" lit up. How many times are we given things in life and yet we didn't make FULL use of the things? God has given us talents in life. Are we using the talents to its FULL potential? How many times have we seen the purpose of having such a talent and yet we belittle that purpose or perhaps didn't see the need of using that God given talent because we are comfortable at what we are doing now? I'm not sure if you'll get what I mean. Just want to say that a table is for writing and doing work, but don't congest it with lots of other things that will prevent the main use. Sometimes a lot of other things may come into our life to distract and block us from using our talents to it's utmost potential. So, we got to be careful to clear some of the unnecessary stuffs off our "tables". Sometimes, we may be so comfortable doing what we used to do and forget that God has given us talents to use.
My "light bulb" has been working rather actively today. Was just talking to Deb online and she said that her mouth is still in pain. She has an ulcer and she couldn't eat, or rather have no appetite to eat because of the pain. Sometimes there may be a problem somewhere and that problem is causing much hurt and loss of interest in some basic necessities in life. Why then are we delaying to solve the problems? Is it because in our heart we are not daring enough to try out the different solutions? I guessed so. However, I believe God has given us solution for all problems. No matter how big or small our problems may be, God is able to provide us with the right solutions.
I want to blog more... but I guessed I'll leave it till tomorrow. It's time to go do some other work. Cya tomorrow!
We were having our lunch after the 9a.m. service today. Michelle then mentioned about her having a table but she never uses the table to do work. She'll do things on her bed instead because she's used to that. She just stacked lots of notes on her table. My "light bulb" lit up. How many times are we given things in life and yet we didn't make FULL use of the things? God has given us talents in life. Are we using the talents to its FULL potential? How many times have we seen the purpose of having such a talent and yet we belittle that purpose or perhaps didn't see the need of using that God given talent because we are comfortable at what we are doing now? I'm not sure if you'll get what I mean. Just want to say that a table is for writing and doing work, but don't congest it with lots of other things that will prevent the main use. Sometimes a lot of other things may come into our life to distract and block us from using our talents to it's utmost potential. So, we got to be careful to clear some of the unnecessary stuffs off our "tables". Sometimes, we may be so comfortable doing what we used to do and forget that God has given us talents to use.
My "light bulb" has been working rather actively today. Was just talking to Deb online and she said that her mouth is still in pain. She has an ulcer and she couldn't eat, or rather have no appetite to eat because of the pain. Sometimes there may be a problem somewhere and that problem is causing much hurt and loss of interest in some basic necessities in life. Why then are we delaying to solve the problems? Is it because in our heart we are not daring enough to try out the different solutions? I guessed so. However, I believe God has given us solution for all problems. No matter how big or small our problems may be, God is able to provide us with the right solutions.
I want to blog more... but I guessed I'll leave it till tomorrow. It's time to go do some other work. Cya tomorrow!
Saturday, December 11, 2004
I'm excited!!!
Wow! Just read my dearest Huiling's blog on the NEW SHOES. I've put on mine!! How about you?? Well, I'm really excited today for a couple of reasons.
Firstly, I've got 3 friends coming for service this week!! More than just bringing them to boost the attendance, I'm excited because I know they'll be blessed by the Word of God. One of them promised to come after the school exams but kept disappointing me, but thank God she's coming tomorrow!! One promised Huiling to come every once a month and she's coming for this Sun 9am service. Another one was my student. Or rather my LITTLE friend in school. I didn't teach her, but she's been a great help to me during my 1st year in school. I owe my ACES day 2003 success to her! She did the PA system for me and got helpers to help me. I'm forever grateful to her. Ever since I know her, it's been in my heart to want to reach out to her. I've invited her once and was sorry that it caused her to quarrel with her mum. This time I muster my courage to ask her again and she agreed! I'm over the moon! I'm gonna pray that she'll understand the Word and she'll enjoy the service and the companions of my new CG members. By the way, in case you are wondering why is she my LITTLE friend, she's young but TALLER than me. So, she's not that LITTLE afterall. Haha!
Secondly, I went for Rev Dr John Avanzini's service today! It was really awesome!! It was something that requires time to think about and absorb. However, my spirit caught the Word faster than my brain did! Dr John talked about Jehovah Jireh! Do you know that this wasn't the name of God?! It's the name of the place where we know and we know that our God will provide! It's the place where we received God's promises! The place of victory is actually where I KNOW I have it and not during the time of manifestation. And we all got to make up our mind that God's promises are for us! They are for me and YOU too! Dr John also talked abt being God's steward. I'm really convicted in my heart to be a good steward of God's money whenI get my pay. All my money belongs to God. How can I squander them away unnecessarily?! I'm gonna spend His money wisely from today onwards.
Thirdly, talking about spending money wisely, I just made a new pair of spectacles. It's gonna make me look a little more mature. I guess that's something rather good for me! Haha! Finally I'm not going to look like a 16 year old gal. Don't be mistaken! I don't mind looking young, but I don't want to look like a 16-year-old-easy-to-bully person. Haha! Those who were present at my aunt's shop actually agree that this pair of spectacles suits me well. I shall wear it to church one of these days when I get it.
Fourthly, I'm excited to announce: I'm getting my pay in a few hours' time!!!!! And I'm excited to tithe my salary to my Father!!! I think this is the 1st time in my life that I'm so excited about tithing. I've really caught the Word deep in my heart! Thank God for the wonderful Word brought forth by Dr John.
Lastly, I just want to end by saying it's time to read God's Word again. I'll get new revelations and share again tomorrow. God says He'll provide FRESH manna EVERYDAY. Thank God for His revelations!!
Firstly, I've got 3 friends coming for service this week!! More than just bringing them to boost the attendance, I'm excited because I know they'll be blessed by the Word of God. One of them promised to come after the school exams but kept disappointing me, but thank God she's coming tomorrow!! One promised Huiling to come every once a month and she's coming for this Sun 9am service. Another one was my student. Or rather my LITTLE friend in school. I didn't teach her, but she's been a great help to me during my 1st year in school. I owe my ACES day 2003 success to her! She did the PA system for me and got helpers to help me. I'm forever grateful to her. Ever since I know her, it's been in my heart to want to reach out to her. I've invited her once and was sorry that it caused her to quarrel with her mum. This time I muster my courage to ask her again and she agreed! I'm over the moon! I'm gonna pray that she'll understand the Word and she'll enjoy the service and the companions of my new CG members. By the way, in case you are wondering why is she my LITTLE friend, she's young but TALLER than me. So, she's not that LITTLE afterall. Haha!
Secondly, I went for Rev Dr John Avanzini's service today! It was really awesome!! It was something that requires time to think about and absorb. However, my spirit caught the Word faster than my brain did! Dr John talked about Jehovah Jireh! Do you know that this wasn't the name of God?! It's the name of the place where we know and we know that our God will provide! It's the place where we received God's promises! The place of victory is actually where I KNOW I have it and not during the time of manifestation. And we all got to make up our mind that God's promises are for us! They are for me and YOU too! Dr John also talked abt being God's steward. I'm really convicted in my heart to be a good steward of God's money whenI get my pay. All my money belongs to God. How can I squander them away unnecessarily?! I'm gonna spend His money wisely from today onwards.
Thirdly, talking about spending money wisely, I just made a new pair of spectacles. It's gonna make me look a little more mature. I guess that's something rather good for me! Haha! Finally I'm not going to look like a 16 year old gal. Don't be mistaken! I don't mind looking young, but I don't want to look like a 16-year-old-easy-to-bully person. Haha! Those who were present at my aunt's shop actually agree that this pair of spectacles suits me well. I shall wear it to church one of these days when I get it.
Fourthly, I'm excited to announce: I'm getting my pay in a few hours' time!!!!! And I'm excited to tithe my salary to my Father!!! I think this is the 1st time in my life that I'm so excited about tithing. I've really caught the Word deep in my heart! Thank God for the wonderful Word brought forth by Dr John.
Lastly, I just want to end by saying it's time to read God's Word again. I'll get new revelations and share again tomorrow. God says He'll provide FRESH manna EVERYDAY. Thank God for His revelations!!
Friday, December 10, 2004
40 days 40 nights (Part 2)
I was praying last night and before I ended my prayer, I asked God if He has anything to speak to me. Well, He just reminded me of Moses again. Remember Moses went up to pray for 40 days 40 nights before coming down with the 2 tablets of stones written with the 10 Commandments? The story didn't just end there. He came down, saw the Children of Israel sinning against God AGAIN. He was so angry that he threw the tablets on the floor and broke them. After that, he went up to pray for ANOTHER 40 days 40 nights. I learnt quite a lot from this story.
1. We ought to pray and keep on praying.
2. Sometimes even after much praying, we may not see what we desire to see and there will
still be disappointments.
3. It's ok to be angry, but after the anger, keep praying.
4. Moses' love for the people is so deep that he did not give up praying for them.
To sum it all, God just wants us to know that our love for people has to grow. It is only when we love them so much that we'll keep on praying for them and want to see them saved in the kingdom of God. Men are not perfect. Along the way, there will definitely be disappointments. However, if we love them, continue to pray for them. I have to increase my love for the people. This is an area that God keeps speaking to me for the past few months! I better do something about it. How? I guess only prayer can change things. I must pray and ask God to fill me with His love. Only when I am filled with His love, then I'll be able to spread His love to others.
1. We ought to pray and keep on praying.
2. Sometimes even after much praying, we may not see what we desire to see and there will
still be disappointments.
3. It's ok to be angry, but after the anger, keep praying.
4. Moses' love for the people is so deep that he did not give up praying for them.
To sum it all, God just wants us to know that our love for people has to grow. It is only when we love them so much that we'll keep on praying for them and want to see them saved in the kingdom of God. Men are not perfect. Along the way, there will definitely be disappointments. However, if we love them, continue to pray for them. I have to increase my love for the people. This is an area that God keeps speaking to me for the past few months! I better do something about it. How? I guess only prayer can change things. I must pray and ask God to fill me with His love. Only when I am filled with His love, then I'll be able to spread His love to others.
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Do you have faith?
We had a prayer meeting last night at Ying's house. I don't know about the rest, but I was stirred up in my spirit and my faith increased. I sensed God wants to ask all of us a question, "Do we have faith?" Yes! No matter how tired or disappointed we may be, there will still be a little faith within us! Jesus said as long as we have faith as small as a mustard seed, we'll be able to move mountains!! This is what God spoke to me and got me really excited! Isn't this a great promise from God? So I have faith to believe that whatever I pray, as long sa it is according to the will of God and it is in faith, it will come to pass!!!
Also, today during BS, we learnt that Moses prayed for 40 days and 40 nights for the Children of Israel in order to ask God for His mercy for His people. He prayed and he prayed and he prayed and God answered His prayers. How long have we prayed for something to happen? Have we given up after praying once or twice? Do you think you've prayed hard enough?? Well, Moses prayed for 40 days and 40 nights. So, we ought to pray and keep on praying!!
Yeah! That's all I want to say for the time being because I want to pray and keep on praying for a breakthrough in my own personal life and for my CG, both W140 and W220. Let's pray hard together!
Also, today during BS, we learnt that Moses prayed for 40 days and 40 nights for the Children of Israel in order to ask God for His mercy for His people. He prayed and he prayed and he prayed and God answered His prayers. How long have we prayed for something to happen? Have we given up after praying once or twice? Do you think you've prayed hard enough?? Well, Moses prayed for 40 days and 40 nights. So, we ought to pray and keep on praying!!
Yeah! That's all I want to say for the time being because I want to pray and keep on praying for a breakthrough in my own personal life and for my CG, both W140 and W220. Let's pray hard together!
Praise the Lord!!
It's amazing! My computer keyboard is suddenly working!! And I can now use my computer again. Praise the Lord!
I'm not going to blog a long entry. Just wanna share something that Ying had prayed for me 2 or 3 weeks ago. This is the Word that was given to me by God through Ying. God brought me to that beautiful chapter again during one of the services. I shall just quote a few verses. Read Isaiah 43 when you have the time.
"Since you were precious in My sight, you have been honored, and I have loved you; therefore I will give men for you, and people for your life. Fear not, for I am with you." -Isaiah 43:4-5-
"Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing. Now it shall spring forth; shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert." -Isaiah 43:18-19-
I believe this chapter will bring me through the next few months of my life. Isn't it a wonderful promise that God has made? He will always perform the impossible and give us hope no matter how lost or desperate we may be.
I'm not going to blog a long entry. Just wanna share something that Ying had prayed for me 2 or 3 weeks ago. This is the Word that was given to me by God through Ying. God brought me to that beautiful chapter again during one of the services. I shall just quote a few verses. Read Isaiah 43 when you have the time.
"Since you were precious in My sight, you have been honored, and I have loved you; therefore I will give men for you, and people for your life. Fear not, for I am with you." -Isaiah 43:4-5-
"Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing. Now it shall spring forth; shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert." -Isaiah 43:18-19-
I believe this chapter will bring me through the next few months of my life. Isn't it a wonderful promise that God has made? He will always perform the impossible and give us hope no matter how lost or desperate we may be.
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
Huiling's Graduation!
Hee! To make up for not blogging for so long, I've decided to blog 2 entries instead. Haha! Also because both entries don't really go well together under 1 heading. Haha! So here I go!
While waiting for the main audi's door to open, I decided to take some photos. So enjoy some of the masterpiece. Haha!
Take a look at the crowd that was queueing and waiting to get into the main audi to attend the graduation.
Jon & Soo (Nicely taken after much attempts... But Jon's expression.. Ha!)
Very nice pic of Evonne & Yingying...
My Dear Eunice's side view..
My Dear & me (taken by me!!)
And of cause, how can miss out putting pictures of the main star of the night? Sa to say, most of the photos are with her now and I couldn't load them. So meanwhile, enjoy what I have here.
Can u see how fast she moves? Thank God only her hand is moving here.
Huiling with the card we made for her. Nice?!
Representatives of W140!!
That's all I've got for the time being. Last but not least again, the following message is for the STAR!!
CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS to my DeArEsT hUiLiNg for your GrAdUaTiOn!!! Well done!! You've completed and gotten a Diploma in Theology! I'm so happy for you! You have climbed on to greater heights and moved closer to your destiny!!! I'm so proud of you! China is waiting for you... and ME!!
While waiting for the main audi's door to open, I decided to take some photos. So enjoy some of the masterpiece. Haha!
Take a look at the crowd that was queueing and waiting to get into the main audi to attend the graduation.
Jon & Soo (Nicely taken after much attempts... But Jon's expression.. Ha!)
Very nice pic of Evonne & Yingying...
My Dear Eunice's side view..
My Dear & me (taken by me!!)
And of cause, how can miss out putting pictures of the main star of the night? Sa to say, most of the photos are with her now and I couldn't load them. So meanwhile, enjoy what I have here.
Can u see how fast she moves? Thank God only her hand is moving here.
Huiling with the card we made for her. Nice?!
Representatives of W140!!
That's all I've got for the time being. Last but not least again, the following message is for the STAR!!
CoNgRaTuLaTiOnS to my DeArEsT hUiLiNg for your GrAdUaTiOn!!! Well done!! You've completed and gotten a Diploma in Theology! I'm so happy for you! You have climbed on to greater heights and moved closer to your destiny!!! I'm so proud of you! China is waiting for you... and ME!!
It's a new beginning!!
Well well well! I guess each time I blog, I need to start of by apologising for taking such a long time to update my blog. Had actually wanted to blog yesterday but was too tired and had a very bad headache. Even till now, the left side of my brain is still a little in pain... but I believe I'll be well when I wake up in the morning. If not, please pray for me!
Anyway, yesterday was supposedly my last day with W140. I'm going over to W220. With much emotions within me, I tried not to cry but I still teared. I know it is a great opportunity that God has given to me to rise up to His calling. There's really nothing to be sad about but it's a happy thing that I'm leaving. However, I can't bear the thought of leaving those that I've spent so many years with and also the thought that my Christmas and Appreciation CG this year will not be spent with them. Anyway, I want to say that: W140, I love all of you! No matter where I'll be, we are forever friends, brothers and sisters in Christ.
Perhaps some of you only see that it's a good thing that I'm leaving to pursue my calling. However, I believe God don't just do something for the benefit of one person. I believe God is doing a work in everyone's lives as well. For W140, it's time for everyone to go up to the next level of taking initiative to do things for the CG. It is time that I leave my comfort zone and step into the unknown. It is also time that everyone leave their comfort zone too and do more for God and for the CG. God is doing something that caused us not to remain where we are but to move on. It's a pity that I won't be there when W140 multiply. However, I'll be there to share your joy and rejoice together with all of you when it happens. Keep praying and stay connected as a CG. I think I'll miss serving you all and helping Huiling to do things. Now, I hand my responsibilities over to the rest of you to help and to serve.
To be a leader isn't as easy as what we think. A leader needs lots of support and understanding from his/her members. That's what my dearest Huiling needs. There are many things in life which we can't help her but we can help to lighten her load by supporting her and understanding her through our actions. When everyone starts doing the right things on their own accord, that is when the CG will start to grow. We've talked so much about taking ownership of the CG, so let's put MORE actions into our words!
Last but not least, I just want to proclaim: It's a new beginning for all of us!! Onward Christian soldier!!
Anyway, yesterday was supposedly my last day with W140. I'm going over to W220. With much emotions within me, I tried not to cry but I still teared. I know it is a great opportunity that God has given to me to rise up to His calling. There's really nothing to be sad about but it's a happy thing that I'm leaving. However, I can't bear the thought of leaving those that I've spent so many years with and also the thought that my Christmas and Appreciation CG this year will not be spent with them. Anyway, I want to say that: W140, I love all of you! No matter where I'll be, we are forever friends, brothers and sisters in Christ.
Perhaps some of you only see that it's a good thing that I'm leaving to pursue my calling. However, I believe God don't just do something for the benefit of one person. I believe God is doing a work in everyone's lives as well. For W140, it's time for everyone to go up to the next level of taking initiative to do things for the CG. It is time that I leave my comfort zone and step into the unknown. It is also time that everyone leave their comfort zone too and do more for God and for the CG. God is doing something that caused us not to remain where we are but to move on. It's a pity that I won't be there when W140 multiply. However, I'll be there to share your joy and rejoice together with all of you when it happens. Keep praying and stay connected as a CG. I think I'll miss serving you all and helping Huiling to do things. Now, I hand my responsibilities over to the rest of you to help and to serve.
To be a leader isn't as easy as what we think. A leader needs lots of support and understanding from his/her members. That's what my dearest Huiling needs. There are many things in life which we can't help her but we can help to lighten her load by supporting her and understanding her through our actions. When everyone starts doing the right things on their own accord, that is when the CG will start to grow. We've talked so much about taking ownership of the CG, so let's put MORE actions into our words!
Last but not least, I just want to proclaim: It's a new beginning for all of us!! Onward Christian soldier!!
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Worship God in Spirit and in truth
I just want to take some time to write down what I experienced on Sun evening during our BV prac:
I was feeling very discouraged the past few days by things that happened. Shall not mention too much about what had caused that discouragement because that's not important. I went to BV prac with a heavy heart. I thought it's going to be a normal BV prac whereby we learn new songs together. However, God has a better plan for everybody who was present that day.
Our task for the day: Worship (Sing) individually in front of everyone and bare our hearts out when we sing. After singing, share what was on our minds as we worship Him.
It wasn't easy to sing and worship God alone because we were showing our most vulnerable inner being. However, we still did it.
We sang Pastor Sun and Bro Mark's song. We could really feel what each individual was feeling as they sing for God. From the singing, we could tell our relationship with God. The presence of God fell in the room as everyone started to focus and sing. Tears flowed down our cheeks.
It was through the singing and the sharing that I begin to know my fellow BV mates more. Realised that some people are going through certain tough times. I wasn't the only one feeling burdened. It was then that I felt all of us were closer to each other.
Worshiping God brought our hearts together. We see each other once a few weeks irregularly and never really get to know one another deep. This session really brought us closer. Like what Ying said, this is what ministry is all about. Ministry is about building relationship with the people in the ministry and growing in our relationship with God as we serve and minister to people.
At the end of the prac, we prayed for each other in twos and ended off the prac with a hug for everyone. Actually I always look forward to hugs. The thing is, I think my CG members don't really like to hug each other. I always hug my Eunice. And I often ask God to give me people to give me big big hugs. SO, I got it all on that day. Think I hugged 12 person altogether. Great sense of love from all those hugs. I think we all need such forms of love actions but are always too shy to do it.
My spirit is slightly lifted up after the prac and I went home to continue praying and to lift up my all to Him. So all's well now! I'm healed emotionally! Praise the Lord!
Whenever we worship God in spirit and in truth, the presence of God will be in our midst to set us free in our struggles. Worshiping God is not just singing a song. But we got to visualise God and mean every word that we sing to Him. When we mean every word we sing, we are worshiping in truth. We don't have to try so hard to be like other people. We can just be ourselves. We can afford to be vulnerable before God.
I really thank God for such a wonderful time that we had. Knowing it is one thing, only through experiencing it will you get excited and want more of it.
Wanna write more but my bro is back. I got to return the laptop to him. So, farewell!!
I was feeling very discouraged the past few days by things that happened. Shall not mention too much about what had caused that discouragement because that's not important. I went to BV prac with a heavy heart. I thought it's going to be a normal BV prac whereby we learn new songs together. However, God has a better plan for everybody who was present that day.
Our task for the day: Worship (Sing) individually in front of everyone and bare our hearts out when we sing. After singing, share what was on our minds as we worship Him.
It wasn't easy to sing and worship God alone because we were showing our most vulnerable inner being. However, we still did it.
We sang Pastor Sun and Bro Mark's song. We could really feel what each individual was feeling as they sing for God. From the singing, we could tell our relationship with God. The presence of God fell in the room as everyone started to focus and sing. Tears flowed down our cheeks.
It was through the singing and the sharing that I begin to know my fellow BV mates more. Realised that some people are going through certain tough times. I wasn't the only one feeling burdened. It was then that I felt all of us were closer to each other.
Worshiping God brought our hearts together. We see each other once a few weeks irregularly and never really get to know one another deep. This session really brought us closer. Like what Ying said, this is what ministry is all about. Ministry is about building relationship with the people in the ministry and growing in our relationship with God as we serve and minister to people.
At the end of the prac, we prayed for each other in twos and ended off the prac with a hug for everyone. Actually I always look forward to hugs. The thing is, I think my CG members don't really like to hug each other. I always hug my Eunice. And I often ask God to give me people to give me big big hugs. SO, I got it all on that day. Think I hugged 12 person altogether. Great sense of love from all those hugs. I think we all need such forms of love actions but are always too shy to do it.
My spirit is slightly lifted up after the prac and I went home to continue praying and to lift up my all to Him. So all's well now! I'm healed emotionally! Praise the Lord!
Whenever we worship God in spirit and in truth, the presence of God will be in our midst to set us free in our struggles. Worshiping God is not just singing a song. But we got to visualise God and mean every word that we sing to Him. When we mean every word we sing, we are worshiping in truth. We don't have to try so hard to be like other people. We can just be ourselves. We can afford to be vulnerable before God.
I really thank God for such a wonderful time that we had. Knowing it is one thing, only through experiencing it will you get excited and want more of it.
Wanna write more but my bro is back. I got to return the laptop to him. So, farewell!!
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
My Lovely Kids!!
These few weeks had been rather busy and packed. Straight after the pupils' exam, all the teachers have to take care of marking and making sure that there's no mistakes. We had to key in all necessary remarks, results, check, check and more checking to make sure that nothing is wrong. Finally there's the Deepavali holiday!!
Well, you should have read from Deb's blog abt Around Orchard in 180min. Well, it was a fun and enjoyable event. I thoroughly enjoyed myself with my team members and we were totally tired.. Haha! Can u imagine someone who dislike walking to walk for more than 3 hrs?! Yeah! I did that!! Though my team didn't win.. but all of us had fun. What awaits us was a nice meal at Cineleisure foodcourt.
After Deepavali, it was the Celebration by the Bay on Sat and Sun! Well, I'd learnt patience through the event of waiting for 2 hrs for my turn to have a go at the Bungee Trampoline. That was fun! Yunhao did a few nice somersaults!! My Eunice and other frens were there to support me. Haha! It was a great sensation to be up there.
Then, it was Hari Raya!! Thank God for this holiday. I had a good rest at home on Mon. I woke up at 10am then I read the Bible. Went back to sleep again. Woke up again to read Bible again. This happened a few times and I finished reading 2 Books of the Bible!!! I've been diligently reading the Bible ever since yesterday because I don't wanna lose track of what I was reading. Currently still reading the 1st Book of Samuel. Should be able to finish reading it today. I also managed to pack my room a little and cleared some drawers of unnecessary things.
Then, it's today! I went to Sentosa with my kids and Jayne. Jayne was there to help me to discipline my kids. This was my 1st time to the Underwater World and the Dolphin Lagoon. I believe 90% of my pupils had been there many many times. However, they still had much fun because I was there with them. Hahaha! So thick skin right? Bleah! Anyway, I volunteered myself to go into the sea to "play" with the PINK DOLPHINS. So I got to touch the dolphin and got kissed by it. I took quite a few photos with my kids too. I'm excited to load the pictures up. For those who heard so much about my DEAR JASON. You'll get to see him here. Real cute boy though! Enjoy! (Think u have to click on the file name to view the photos.. Sorry for the trouble)
Don't think I'm bullying him k! Look further down at other photos..
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This was my 1st pic with him.. see how cheeky he is...
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Another pic of Jason with me..
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This wonderful pic captured my kids' cutest side. (Taken by Jayne)
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My whole class of 42.. with a few missing souls who were more interested in food then taking pic with me...
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Yeah! That's all for the time being! I love my kids!!!
Well, you should have read from Deb's blog abt Around Orchard in 180min. Well, it was a fun and enjoyable event. I thoroughly enjoyed myself with my team members and we were totally tired.. Haha! Can u imagine someone who dislike walking to walk for more than 3 hrs?! Yeah! I did that!! Though my team didn't win.. but all of us had fun. What awaits us was a nice meal at Cineleisure foodcourt.
After Deepavali, it was the Celebration by the Bay on Sat and Sun! Well, I'd learnt patience through the event of waiting for 2 hrs for my turn to have a go at the Bungee Trampoline. That was fun! Yunhao did a few nice somersaults!! My Eunice and other frens were there to support me. Haha! It was a great sensation to be up there.
Then, it was Hari Raya!! Thank God for this holiday. I had a good rest at home on Mon. I woke up at 10am then I read the Bible. Went back to sleep again. Woke up again to read Bible again. This happened a few times and I finished reading 2 Books of the Bible!!! I've been diligently reading the Bible ever since yesterday because I don't wanna lose track of what I was reading. Currently still reading the 1st Book of Samuel. Should be able to finish reading it today. I also managed to pack my room a little and cleared some drawers of unnecessary things.
Then, it's today! I went to Sentosa with my kids and Jayne. Jayne was there to help me to discipline my kids. This was my 1st time to the Underwater World and the Dolphin Lagoon. I believe 90% of my pupils had been there many many times. However, they still had much fun because I was there with them. Hahaha! So thick skin right? Bleah! Anyway, I volunteered myself to go into the sea to "play" with the PINK DOLPHINS. So I got to touch the dolphin and got kissed by it. I took quite a few photos with my kids too. I'm excited to load the pictures up. For those who heard so much about my DEAR JASON. You'll get to see him here. Real cute boy though! Enjoy! (Think u have to click on the file name to view the photos.. Sorry for the trouble)
Don't think I'm bullying him k! Look further down at other photos..
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This was my 1st pic with him.. see how cheeky he is...
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Another pic of Jason with me..
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This wonderful pic captured my kids' cutest side. (Taken by Jayne)
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My whole class of 42.. with a few missing souls who were more interested in food then taking pic with me...
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Yeah! That's all for the time being! I love my kids!!!
Thursday, November 04, 2004
God loves you & I love you too!!!
Dearest all!! I miss all of you! Anybody miss me??? :p Well, it's been a very very busy week. Finally exams are over!!! I can now heave a sigh of relief. Haha! However, it means it's time to be busy for other projects...
Anyway, my keyboard is spoilt all of a sudden and I couldn't blog or chat online again. I brought my laptop home today so that I can blog. Was supposed to blog about my revelation last week but didn't get a chance. Was typing it out halfway and I realised I've got no more conviction to write about it. Hahaha! I'm more excited to share about my encounter with God on Tuesday. So here it goes:
I was invigilating a class then. Felt very tired and bored. Decided to make my time fruitful, so I decided to pray in my mind. As I continued to pray on, I suddenly heard my Heavenly Father called my name!! It's normal to hear people calling me Hui. But it's definitely not so with my Heavenly Father. This was the 1st time that I heard Him calling me Hui. Most of the time I only hear instructions and directions from the Holy Spirit. To hear Him calling my name was such a sweet feeling. I felt so loved at that moment. I went on to have a conversation with God. I asked Him for wisdom on how to deal with certain things in life. He told me a few things. One of it is, to love my pupils. Indeed God loves the world. No matter how young or old, good or bad, God still loves us. I looked at every pupil in the class and said a short prayer for everyone of them. Somehow, these past few weeks God has been reminding me to love people despite their shortcomings. He brought me into different situations to meet different kinds of people who irritates me and then He told me that He loves them despite everything that they had done. So, I ought to love them too if I really love Him. So indeed, I have to love God wholeheartedly and love people fervently! My message for everyone who reads this, is really that, God loves you and I love you too. Even though sometimes we may feel that people do not understand or do not love us, but God always loves us no matter what happens.
So while I was excitedly conversing with Him, I took the opportunity to ask for directions for certain issues of my life. I asked for a sign. Asked for another confirmation sign last night. And I got my answer!!! Praise the Lord! When I asked for the sign, I was thinking that sign was rather impossible to come to pass. Yet, another voice within me is saying, nothing is too impossible for God. So yeah, the sign came to pass. Indeed, nothing is impossible for God.
I came to realise that if God wants something to be done, He will make sure that everything is made possible. I'll blog about this the next time because I want to share this during CGM this Sat. If you are interested to know, come join us for CGM this Sat!!
Ok! Time to go and talk to my Father. So long!! Take care all my beloved ones! Love you lots!! :D
Anyway, my keyboard is spoilt all of a sudden and I couldn't blog or chat online again. I brought my laptop home today so that I can blog. Was supposed to blog about my revelation last week but didn't get a chance. Was typing it out halfway and I realised I've got no more conviction to write about it. Hahaha! I'm more excited to share about my encounter with God on Tuesday. So here it goes:
I was invigilating a class then. Felt very tired and bored. Decided to make my time fruitful, so I decided to pray in my mind. As I continued to pray on, I suddenly heard my Heavenly Father called my name!! It's normal to hear people calling me Hui. But it's definitely not so with my Heavenly Father. This was the 1st time that I heard Him calling me Hui. Most of the time I only hear instructions and directions from the Holy Spirit. To hear Him calling my name was such a sweet feeling. I felt so loved at that moment. I went on to have a conversation with God. I asked Him for wisdom on how to deal with certain things in life. He told me a few things. One of it is, to love my pupils. Indeed God loves the world. No matter how young or old, good or bad, God still loves us. I looked at every pupil in the class and said a short prayer for everyone of them. Somehow, these past few weeks God has been reminding me to love people despite their shortcomings. He brought me into different situations to meet different kinds of people who irritates me and then He told me that He loves them despite everything that they had done. So, I ought to love them too if I really love Him. So indeed, I have to love God wholeheartedly and love people fervently! My message for everyone who reads this, is really that, God loves you and I love you too. Even though sometimes we may feel that people do not understand or do not love us, but God always loves us no matter what happens.
So while I was excitedly conversing with Him, I took the opportunity to ask for directions for certain issues of my life. I asked for a sign. Asked for another confirmation sign last night. And I got my answer!!! Praise the Lord! When I asked for the sign, I was thinking that sign was rather impossible to come to pass. Yet, another voice within me is saying, nothing is too impossible for God. So yeah, the sign came to pass. Indeed, nothing is impossible for God.
I came to realise that if God wants something to be done, He will make sure that everything is made possible. I'll blog about this the next time because I want to share this during CGM this Sat. If you are interested to know, come join us for CGM this Sat!!
Ok! Time to go and talk to my Father. So long!! Take care all my beloved ones! Love you lots!! :D
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
It's already 11.30pm. I don't know how long I'll blog. There's so much marking to be down but yet I felt that I needed to pen down my thoughts...
It has been a busy week. Everyday I woke up early in the morning to get to Bedok Green Primary School to mark the PSLE papers. Each day after work there's so much to do. I went to cut my hair on the 1st day, went to church for a special meeting with a missionary from China on the 2nd day and today I went for BS. I must confessed that I have yielded to my flesh and hit the bed every night after reading the bible. I've not marked anything and looking at the piles of work really frightens me. Anyway, tomorrow is the last day of PSLE marking. It's also my mother's birthday. I'm bringing her out for dinner. So there goes my marking time again. However, I believe there is a way out. Enough of my introduction, the reason why I still blog despite my lack of time is because I wanna share of what I've learnt and heard from God these 2 days.
Let's talk about yesterday's meeting with Pastor Dennis. He's an Caucasian but he speaks pretty fluent English, Cantonese and Chinese!!! He shares about what he has been doing all along in China. He showed us videos and pictures of what is happening in China. I'm amazed to see the wonderful works of God in the rural areas in China. God sent missionaries to China to spread the love and Word of God to these people. And because of these missionaries, more and more China people are added into the kingdom of God. Seeing the hunger of these people for the Word of God really touches my heart. Thousands of them gathered in a small courtyard listening to the Word of God being preached. Everyone is so attentive and earnest to copy down the scriptures as they do not have bibles. How blessed we are, to be living in Singapore whereby there is freedom of religions and we can get our bibles anywhere! As I listen to the sharing done by Pastor Dennis and watched the video, I could hear my heart crying out, "God, use me!" I have a heart for China. I want to be part of the team that God sends to do a work in China. I want to be trained and discipled to do His work. I know now is a preparation phase for me before I really enter into missions. So right now, I can only pray for China and contribute as much finances as I can for missions.
As I'm typing this now, I'm reminded of what someone dear to me told me when I tried to get her to come back to church. The reason she gave for not coming is, she is still at a micro level of wanting to know God whereas our church is moving into a macro level of being a blessing to others in missions. Like what Pastor Kong shared and what Ying reiterated in her blog, God doesn't just want us to be blessed. We shouldn't focus on the wrong covenant. We should be blessed SO THAT we can be a blessings to others! So many people missed their destiny and relationship with God just because they want to live in their own comfort. So many came to church just wanting to be blessed but not wanting to bless others. It's a sad thing to know that people stayed away from church just because they feel that missions are not for them. In fact, God has called everyone to be missionaries! Jesus said in Matt 28:19:
"Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit."
Well, I was disappointed in this dear fren of mine who rejected my many invitations. However, I will not give up in her. I believe my heart for her will cause her to be touched one day and she'll be back. She'll grow stronger in the Lord. The Word of God says, "Do not be weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."
So, to Mic:
It is normal to be disappointed when people fail you. But don't let that disappointment get you down or get in your way of meeting God and fulfilling your destiny in Him. The Word of God says that we should praise Him IN EVERY situations. Our situations should never become a barrier between us and God. His ways are higher than our ways, His thoughts are higher than our thoughts too! I believe He has a better plan which we do not know yet. I also believe that God is building His people up spiritually to do His work. That includes you and I. As both of us have desires to touch lives and impact people, let's build ourselves up strong in the Word, spiritually mature, to be a light that shines wherever we go. Let's bear such a good testimony for Him that people will be attracted to us that we might direct them to God. Huiling reminded me this morning: The proof of our desire is in our pursuit. Let's do all that we can to pursue after our desire ok? With men, it is impossible. But with God, all things are possible. Yes!! The Word of God is true! You can do it together with God. You can do all things through Christ who strengthens YOU. Only through Jesus and not by your own strength. This verse applies not just to everyone, but that everyone includes YOU. Don't lose heart. Keep praying for your fren. I won't forget my dear frens too. Last but not least, Mic, I enjoyed the time we spent talking each time after our BS and before we pray. Thanks for sharing and for staying back till so late.
John 4:23:
"But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will WORSHIP the Father in SPIRIT and TRUTH; for the Father is seeking such to WORSHIP Him."
Ps 29:2:
"Give unto the LORD the glory due to His name; WORSHIP the LORD in the beauty of holiness."
Wow! It's a long entry... It's 1am! I got to wake up in about 5 hours' time. So I shall stop here for the time being. I still have something else to share... perhaps I'll continue tomorrow. :D
It has been a busy week. Everyday I woke up early in the morning to get to Bedok Green Primary School to mark the PSLE papers. Each day after work there's so much to do. I went to cut my hair on the 1st day, went to church for a special meeting with a missionary from China on the 2nd day and today I went for BS. I must confessed that I have yielded to my flesh and hit the bed every night after reading the bible. I've not marked anything and looking at the piles of work really frightens me. Anyway, tomorrow is the last day of PSLE marking. It's also my mother's birthday. I'm bringing her out for dinner. So there goes my marking time again. However, I believe there is a way out. Enough of my introduction, the reason why I still blog despite my lack of time is because I wanna share of what I've learnt and heard from God these 2 days.
Let's talk about yesterday's meeting with Pastor Dennis. He's an Caucasian but he speaks pretty fluent English, Cantonese and Chinese!!! He shares about what he has been doing all along in China. He showed us videos and pictures of what is happening in China. I'm amazed to see the wonderful works of God in the rural areas in China. God sent missionaries to China to spread the love and Word of God to these people. And because of these missionaries, more and more China people are added into the kingdom of God. Seeing the hunger of these people for the Word of God really touches my heart. Thousands of them gathered in a small courtyard listening to the Word of God being preached. Everyone is so attentive and earnest to copy down the scriptures as they do not have bibles. How blessed we are, to be living in Singapore whereby there is freedom of religions and we can get our bibles anywhere! As I listen to the sharing done by Pastor Dennis and watched the video, I could hear my heart crying out, "God, use me!" I have a heart for China. I want to be part of the team that God sends to do a work in China. I want to be trained and discipled to do His work. I know now is a preparation phase for me before I really enter into missions. So right now, I can only pray for China and contribute as much finances as I can for missions.
As I'm typing this now, I'm reminded of what someone dear to me told me when I tried to get her to come back to church. The reason she gave for not coming is, she is still at a micro level of wanting to know God whereas our church is moving into a macro level of being a blessing to others in missions. Like what Pastor Kong shared and what Ying reiterated in her blog, God doesn't just want us to be blessed. We shouldn't focus on the wrong covenant. We should be blessed SO THAT we can be a blessings to others! So many people missed their destiny and relationship with God just because they want to live in their own comfort. So many came to church just wanting to be blessed but not wanting to bless others. It's a sad thing to know that people stayed away from church just because they feel that missions are not for them. In fact, God has called everyone to be missionaries! Jesus said in Matt 28:19:
"Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit."
Well, I was disappointed in this dear fren of mine who rejected my many invitations. However, I will not give up in her. I believe my heart for her will cause her to be touched one day and she'll be back. She'll grow stronger in the Lord. The Word of God says, "Do not be weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."
So, to Mic:
It is normal to be disappointed when people fail you. But don't let that disappointment get you down or get in your way of meeting God and fulfilling your destiny in Him. The Word of God says that we should praise Him IN EVERY situations. Our situations should never become a barrier between us and God. His ways are higher than our ways, His thoughts are higher than our thoughts too! I believe He has a better plan which we do not know yet. I also believe that God is building His people up spiritually to do His work. That includes you and I. As both of us have desires to touch lives and impact people, let's build ourselves up strong in the Word, spiritually mature, to be a light that shines wherever we go. Let's bear such a good testimony for Him that people will be attracted to us that we might direct them to God. Huiling reminded me this morning: The proof of our desire is in our pursuit. Let's do all that we can to pursue after our desire ok? With men, it is impossible. But with God, all things are possible. Yes!! The Word of God is true! You can do it together with God. You can do all things through Christ who strengthens YOU. Only through Jesus and not by your own strength. This verse applies not just to everyone, but that everyone includes YOU. Don't lose heart. Keep praying for your fren. I won't forget my dear frens too. Last but not least, Mic, I enjoyed the time we spent talking each time after our BS and before we pray. Thanks for sharing and for staying back till so late.
John 4:23:
"But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will WORSHIP the Father in SPIRIT and TRUTH; for the Father is seeking such to WORSHIP Him."
Ps 29:2:
"Give unto the LORD the glory due to His name; WORSHIP the LORD in the beauty of holiness."
Wow! It's a long entry... It's 1am! I got to wake up in about 5 hours' time. So I shall stop here for the time being. I still have something else to share... perhaps I'll continue tomorrow. :D
Monday, October 18, 2004
PSLE marking...
Yesterday morning I went to play the guitar for Sis Ee Ling's cg. I was all prepared becos we just played the Praise song last week. However, I reached there only to know that I need to depose the song. Oh man!! It was tough playing those bar chords throughout. During the prac, I was so nervous. I kept playing the wrong chords. And know what? After the prac, I lost my pick!! That was the best pick. I got to make do with another one which does not sound as good. So I think I really got to apologised to Sis Ee Ling and her cg. Sorry sorry sorry. It was a good experience though. I can remember my SHIFU (Bro Merf) told me to know how to depose on the spot. I can also remember my beloved Huiling telling me to flow with the leader. Hopefully I didn't flow too badly with her. =D
Anyway, today is PSLE marking 1st day! I was out of my house early but reached the sch late. Waited rather long for the bus. Thank God I was about 10min late only. While I was running from the bus stop to the sch gate, there were 2 irritating guys standing at the sch hall laughing at me. When I finally reached the hall, I was hot and thirsty. I met my colleagues and saw one of the irritating guys. He looked towards my direction and smiled at me. I turned to ask my colleague if that was her fren, but she said no! So that guy must be laughing at me!!! Don't ask me how he look like. I was too embarrassed and angry to look at him carefully.
Really got to thank God for a good job. I heard my name being called. There were only 4 of us. I reported and was told we were to mark the open-ended questions. I got a shock thinking it's problem sums. Hahaha! But it was the easiest section!! I got what I prayed for. Thank God for that. We went in and started marking rather early. I was satisfied with my job and efficiency. We finished marking about 5 to 6 packs. Still below target but we were the fastest. Hahaha! Of cos! Cos we got the easiest section. But we haf a lot more work to do. Got to check, shade etc. There were boring times too. BTW, the highlight of the day was break time! Hahaha! We were given $3 coupons to buy food. I finished up $2.80 during the 1st break at 10plus. Wahaha! So I didn't eat lunch. Got my Muslim fren's $1 cos she's fasting. Thank God for that. Tmr I shall ration my coupons well. Hahaha!
Think that's all I wanna say for the time being. Hope I can haf more revelations this week to share. Heehee! Wait for me k! Meanwhile, thanks for visiting and reading!
Anyway, today is PSLE marking 1st day! I was out of my house early but reached the sch late. Waited rather long for the bus. Thank God I was about 10min late only. While I was running from the bus stop to the sch gate, there were 2 irritating guys standing at the sch hall laughing at me. When I finally reached the hall, I was hot and thirsty. I met my colleagues and saw one of the irritating guys. He looked towards my direction and smiled at me. I turned to ask my colleague if that was her fren, but she said no! So that guy must be laughing at me!!! Don't ask me how he look like. I was too embarrassed and angry to look at him carefully.
Really got to thank God for a good job. I heard my name being called. There were only 4 of us. I reported and was told we were to mark the open-ended questions. I got a shock thinking it's problem sums. Hahaha! But it was the easiest section!! I got what I prayed for. Thank God for that. We went in and started marking rather early. I was satisfied with my job and efficiency. We finished marking about 5 to 6 packs. Still below target but we were the fastest. Hahaha! Of cos! Cos we got the easiest section. But we haf a lot more work to do. Got to check, shade etc. There were boring times too. BTW, the highlight of the day was break time! Hahaha! We were given $3 coupons to buy food. I finished up $2.80 during the 1st break at 10plus. Wahaha! So I didn't eat lunch. Got my Muslim fren's $1 cos she's fasting. Thank God for that. Tmr I shall ration my coupons well. Hahaha!
Think that's all I wanna say for the time being. Hope I can haf more revelations this week to share. Heehee! Wait for me k! Meanwhile, thanks for visiting and reading!
Friday, October 15, 2004
Marking marking marking...
It's been a mad rush these few days trying to finish marking stacks and stacks of books and worksheets. How pitiful these kids are, having to do so many exercises altogether. Not forgetting how tired the teachers are trying to finish marking every single one of them to return them back to the kids for revision. Here's an interesting conversation between my kids and I in class:
Me: Today I'm going to give you 1 set of English and 1 set of Science worksheets. Hand in
tomorrow.
Kids: Huh!!! Ms Goh, we already have a lot of homework!
Me: Hmm.. I believe if you don't waste time talking, you can actually
finish some in class and have lesser to do at home.
Kids: Last night a lot of us finished at 12 midnight leh!
Me: (Feeling sorry but yet angry at their attitude) Well, I slept at 3am to mark your work.
Kids: Wa!!
Me: If you are complaining about doing 2 sets of worksheets, how much more should I
complain? Every 1 set of worksheet, I got to mark 42 scripts. If you do 5 sets, how many
would I have to mark?
Kids: (After much mental calculation) 210!
Me: Yes! 210 altogether! Who has more work?
Kids: You. (Speechless)
Me: So don't complain ok. Alright! You don't have to do the comprehension in the English
worksheet.
Kids: Yeah!!
So that's it! I guess it's happy ending! Hahaha! So they willingly have to do my work. The 2 stacks are now lying at my house... hmmm.. when will I be free to mark them? Got to finish them fast. Just gave out 6 sets today for them to complete during the PSLE marking days. Don't want the stacks to pile up. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!!! AMEN!
Me: Today I'm going to give you 1 set of English and 1 set of Science worksheets. Hand in
tomorrow.
Kids: Huh!!! Ms Goh, we already have a lot of homework!
Me: Hmm.. I believe if you don't waste time talking, you can actually
finish some in class and have lesser to do at home.
Kids: Last night a lot of us finished at 12 midnight leh!
Me: (Feeling sorry but yet angry at their attitude) Well, I slept at 3am to mark your work.
Kids: Wa!!
Me: If you are complaining about doing 2 sets of worksheets, how much more should I
complain? Every 1 set of worksheet, I got to mark 42 scripts. If you do 5 sets, how many
would I have to mark?
Kids: (After much mental calculation) 210!
Me: Yes! 210 altogether! Who has more work?
Kids: You. (Speechless)
Me: So don't complain ok. Alright! You don't have to do the comprehension in the English
worksheet.
Kids: Yeah!!
So that's it! I guess it's happy ending! Hahaha! So they willingly have to do my work. The 2 stacks are now lying at my house... hmmm.. when will I be free to mark them? Got to finish them fast. Just gave out 6 sets today for them to complete during the PSLE marking days. Don't want the stacks to pile up. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!!! AMEN!
Friday, October 08, 2004
God is in time!
Hey folks! I have the last 10 min to blog before going for my TAF duty at 3.30pm. I just had dinner with my DEAREST EUNICE last night. It was a late celebration for my birthday. My dear was rather apologetic that it was so late.. but I don't feel it that way. Cos God actually has a perfect timing. :)
Anyway, we had noodles, baos and jiao zi at Crystal Jade. Very NICE! Hahaha! Thank God for her.
Also I wanna share this: I was actually feeling rather hungry this afternoon. Was about to go around asking my colleagues for biscuits when my HOD appeared. Thought he wanted to give me work to do... but he asked me if I've had my lunch. So I told him no and he said he had extra food and asked me if I would like to take the packet of MEE REBUS. God is great and in time!!! Hahaha! Surely He knows the desires of our heart and never fails to come at the right time.
Ops! The bell has rung! Byebye!!! =D
Anyway, we had noodles, baos and jiao zi at Crystal Jade. Very NICE! Hahaha! Thank God for her.
Also I wanna share this: I was actually feeling rather hungry this afternoon. Was about to go around asking my colleagues for biscuits when my HOD appeared. Thought he wanted to give me work to do... but he asked me if I've had my lunch. So I told him no and he said he had extra food and asked me if I would like to take the packet of MEE REBUS. God is great and in time!!! Hahaha! Surely He knows the desires of our heart and never fails to come at the right time.
Ops! The bell has rung! Byebye!!! =D
Monday, October 04, 2004
Perfect Love Casts out FEAR!
I'm using my bro's laptop now cos mine is low batt and I didn't bring my charger home. I was supposed to do my lesson plans but I decided to do that tomorrow when I go to school instead.. or perhaps later tonight (if I managed to keep myself awake).
Well, I wanna thank Deb for coming to my house to prevent me from falling asleep so that I could finish marking my HUGE stack of ENGLISH Activity Books. Praise the LORD! I'd finished and I'm here to blog. This might be my only entry for the week because I'll be real busy this week.
I had a meeting on Sat and realised there are so many things that I need to do and plan for the coming days. There's a CCA day coming up whereby we need to showcase our CCA to the P2 kids and their parents. Something new this yr, so lots of planning to be done. There's also a WALK & JOG coming up. This is also something new for this yr and I'm in charge of one part of the entire event. There are lots of new implementations as well. I think it's gonna be an even challenging yr next yr as I believe more things will be thrown under my charge. I pray for God's grace and wisdom to be upon me every single day of my life.
So, I'll be busy planning my work and finishing whatever that I need to finish. Finally gonna resume BS on Wed!! And also BV prac on Sun!! Yeah! Though I'll have lesser time for myself, but I think I need the BS and the BV prac to make my time more fruitful. Many times going for BS and BV prac actually strengthens me. Though sometimes I may drag my feet there because I'm physically tired, but after all it's all worth it because God moves through BS and even in prac!
By the way, I was worshiping in service today when I heard God spoke to me, "Perfect love casts out fear." Tears began to roll down my cheeks as I heard those words. I realised I've not perfected that love for God all along. If I had loved Him so much, I would not have feared when I faced my lack in life. To me, love for someone will cause a person to do whatever he/she can to make the person that he/she loves happy. Love will cause a person to go the extra mile. Love will cause a person to say, "No matter what happens, it is enough just to have You." This is a season that I need to put my total trust in Him and really love Him more than I love myself or anybody. There must be a conviction that it is good enough just to have Him alone. Nothing else really matters. I need to go the extra mile for Him and obey His call.
I thank God for sending His angels (u may be the angel I'm talking about)to bless me every single day of my life to keep showing me His faithfulness. God is never late. He is always on time. His Word always comes at the right time to encourage and lift us up. As I was looking through 1 John 4:18, the Holy Spirit reminded me that God is love. If I replace the word "love" with "God", it'll be:
"There is no fear in God, but perfect God casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in God."
Wow! What a revelation to me! Thank for this revelation. Thank God for His love.
Well, I wanna thank Deb for coming to my house to prevent me from falling asleep so that I could finish marking my HUGE stack of ENGLISH Activity Books. Praise the LORD! I'd finished and I'm here to blog. This might be my only entry for the week because I'll be real busy this week.
I had a meeting on Sat and realised there are so many things that I need to do and plan for the coming days. There's a CCA day coming up whereby we need to showcase our CCA to the P2 kids and their parents. Something new this yr, so lots of planning to be done. There's also a WALK & JOG coming up. This is also something new for this yr and I'm in charge of one part of the entire event. There are lots of new implementations as well. I think it's gonna be an even challenging yr next yr as I believe more things will be thrown under my charge. I pray for God's grace and wisdom to be upon me every single day of my life.
So, I'll be busy planning my work and finishing whatever that I need to finish. Finally gonna resume BS on Wed!! And also BV prac on Sun!! Yeah! Though I'll have lesser time for myself, but I think I need the BS and the BV prac to make my time more fruitful. Many times going for BS and BV prac actually strengthens me. Though sometimes I may drag my feet there because I'm physically tired, but after all it's all worth it because God moves through BS and even in prac!
By the way, I was worshiping in service today when I heard God spoke to me, "Perfect love casts out fear." Tears began to roll down my cheeks as I heard those words. I realised I've not perfected that love for God all along. If I had loved Him so much, I would not have feared when I faced my lack in life. To me, love for someone will cause a person to do whatever he/she can to make the person that he/she loves happy. Love will cause a person to go the extra mile. Love will cause a person to say, "No matter what happens, it is enough just to have You." This is a season that I need to put my total trust in Him and really love Him more than I love myself or anybody. There must be a conviction that it is good enough just to have Him alone. Nothing else really matters. I need to go the extra mile for Him and obey His call.
--1 John 4:18--
"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love."
I thank God for sending His angels (u may be the angel I'm talking about)to bless me every single day of my life to keep showing me His faithfulness. God is never late. He is always on time. His Word always comes at the right time to encourage and lift us up. As I was looking through 1 John 4:18, the Holy Spirit reminded me that God is love. If I replace the word "love" with "God", it'll be:
"There is no fear in God, but perfect God casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in God."
Wow! What a revelation to me! Thank for this revelation. Thank God for His love.
Thursday, September 30, 2004
Children's Day Celebration!!
It's Children's Day Celebration today!!! I have 25 min to my lessons... Haha! What a wonderful rest! Though I was in school from 730am onwards, I had fun performing for the kids! It was a resounding success! I'm so excited because we all did well. The pupils enjoyed the play a lot. Lots of free food from the pupils... Hee! They had their class party and we had the left over food. Lots and lots of chicken wings!!!!! Had a free meal just like that!
I think I like performing.. haha! will get myself ready for next yr's play or song.. It has always been my dream to compose a special song just for the kids. Maybe at the end of the yr...
Hmm... Time to do work.. Will be back cos tmr is HOLIDAY!!!!
I think I like performing.. haha! will get myself ready for next yr's play or song.. It has always been my dream to compose a special song just for the kids. Maybe at the end of the yr...
Hmm... Time to do work.. Will be back cos tmr is HOLIDAY!!!!
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
He is FAITHFUL!
I'm going through some tough times now.. Many times I just feel like crying. I know I have to stop having negative thoughts. I have to hold my tears in front of others and I can only cry before my Father in heaven. I was rather disappointed and even lost my trust in Him. The more I thought about my situation, the more I feel sad. I know this is one area in my life that I've yet to totally put my trust in Him. Perhaps that's why I'm tested and was hurt so badly.
However, I still wanna thank Him for being faithful and always there even though I lost my trust in Him. He is an amazing God. He understands all that I'm going through and He made all other things so beautiful just to let me know that He has never forsakened me. Just when I feel that I'm alone, He showed His faithfulness in the very simple things in life. He blesses me with people in my life who blesses me, He stops the rain for me, He sends His Rhema through the service to encourage me. All these may not seemed much to others, but they mean a lot to me. I can't find words good enough to elaborate the deep gratitude that I feel towards Him. The more difficulties I faced each day, the more I experience His grace towards me. Maybe nobody will understand what I'm talking about, but it doesn't matter. All I wanna say is God is a good and faithful God.
Maybe you are feeling lost... Have you lost the hope in God? Discouraged by the situation you are in? Be sensitive and you'll know that God is always there holding us with His arms. When we feel that all hope's lost, He'll always do something to show His faithfulness. Spend some time thinking through what He has done in your life. He is STILL DOING lots of things for us. I got this revelation while encouraging one friend.
Also wanna quote someone who gave me a Word, "Be still and know that I am God."
However, I still wanna thank Him for being faithful and always there even though I lost my trust in Him. He is an amazing God. He understands all that I'm going through and He made all other things so beautiful just to let me know that He has never forsakened me. Just when I feel that I'm alone, He showed His faithfulness in the very simple things in life. He blesses me with people in my life who blesses me, He stops the rain for me, He sends His Rhema through the service to encourage me. All these may not seemed much to others, but they mean a lot to me. I can't find words good enough to elaborate the deep gratitude that I feel towards Him. The more difficulties I faced each day, the more I experience His grace towards me. Maybe nobody will understand what I'm talking about, but it doesn't matter. All I wanna say is God is a good and faithful God.
Maybe you are feeling lost... Have you lost the hope in God? Discouraged by the situation you are in? Be sensitive and you'll know that God is always there holding us with His arms. When we feel that all hope's lost, He'll always do something to show His faithfulness. Spend some time thinking through what He has done in your life. He is STILL DOING lots of things for us. I got this revelation while encouraging one friend.
Also wanna quote someone who gave me a Word, "Be still and know that I am God."
Friday, September 24, 2004
Frustrations
I have the last 5 min to finish typing out my frustrations.. I've been scolding my pupils from 10am until 4pm.. I'm very disappointed with the kids. They had been using my name and my HOD's name to enter the PE room to take things. Caught a few of them today. I'm exploding... I made the decision to stop this from happening again. So I went to make an announcement to stop everyone from bringing their Badminton rackets to school. By the way, there's a badminton craze here in school!!!! Pupils without rackets therefore went into MY PE ROOM to take MY RACKETS!!! In a fit of anger, I made an announcement to stop all activities...
To be continued...
To be continued...
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Showers of Blessings!!
Hmm.. it's been a long time since my last entry. Realised I've typed this very long ago.. but kept forgetting to post it up... so it's a late entry...
Well, I guess I didn't have much to talk about that's why I didn't appear on my own blog plus I've been going out everyday since Sun. For those who did not know, it was my birthday yesterday! Yup! So, from Sun until yesterday, I've been out celebrating my birthday with my frens from different walks of life. Ha! How I wished all my frens know each other, then I don't have to celebrate so many times. I've got a cake every single day for the past 4 days. Haha! Thank God I don't grow fat easily. The cakes are really delicious.... and fattening!!! Yum yum!!
Well, I guess I must mention my wonderful CG. My wonderful W140 celebrated my birthday for me on Sun! I was overwhelmed by their love, which was translated into a SWEET sabotage. My beloved CG bought me a cup of Milo. I had to finish half the cup of this SUPER DUPER EXTRA SWEET Milo!!! What a torture!! I hate sweet stuffs. I heard it's half filled with condensed milk! If you don't believe it is that sweet, try it. I don't even drink hot milo with it's normal amount of sugar and condensed milk. Yup! I don't take food or drinks that are too sweet. Followed by that, everyone in the CG each gave me a gift. Then, when it was my dearest Deb's turn, my beloved CGL called all to gather around me. I smelt something fishy... Deb actually gave me her beloved YELLOW BEETLE!!! And I got hit by everyone. Well... I feel so... loved by all of them. Ha! Truly, I feel touched by their efforts in making my day happy. Thanks my brothers and sisters!!! Love you lots lots!!!
Well, I guess I didn't have much to talk about that's why I didn't appear on my own blog plus I've been going out everyday since Sun. For those who did not know, it was my birthday yesterday! Yup! So, from Sun until yesterday, I've been out celebrating my birthday with my frens from different walks of life. Ha! How I wished all my frens know each other, then I don't have to celebrate so many times. I've got a cake every single day for the past 4 days. Haha! Thank God I don't grow fat easily. The cakes are really delicious.... and fattening!!! Yum yum!!
Well, I guess I must mention my wonderful CG. My wonderful W140 celebrated my birthday for me on Sun! I was overwhelmed by their love, which was translated into a SWEET sabotage. My beloved CG bought me a cup of Milo. I had to finish half the cup of this SUPER DUPER EXTRA SWEET Milo!!! What a torture!! I hate sweet stuffs. I heard it's half filled with condensed milk! If you don't believe it is that sweet, try it. I don't even drink hot milo with it's normal amount of sugar and condensed milk. Yup! I don't take food or drinks that are too sweet. Followed by that, everyone in the CG each gave me a gift. Then, when it was my dearest Deb's turn, my beloved CGL called all to gather around me. I smelt something fishy... Deb actually gave me her beloved YELLOW BEETLE!!! And I got hit by everyone. Well... I feel so... loved by all of them. Ha! Truly, I feel touched by their efforts in making my day happy. Thanks my brothers and sisters!!! Love you lots lots!!!
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
The Great Awakening!
It's finally the school holidays! The long awaited rest! However, I didn't really rest for the past 2 days. In fact, I went to attend a Track & Field course at SMU. We had lots of physical activities but it was nothing compared to those intensive ones I had when I was still studying in NIE and also the Instructor Rope Course that I took last year. However, my body was just too tired and worn out after the 1st day. Therefore, I came to realise that I'm old. Haha! Thanks to my dearest Huiling who confirmed that.
I admit that age does have a part to play, however, my inactive schedule also contributes to this tiredness. I may have run and play alot with my kids in school, but I did not work the other parts of my body. After a half day course yesterday, I decided that there is a need to tone up my body. I need to be a healthy and strong person in order to be an effective witness for Christ. My goal now is to build myself strong SPIRITUALLY, PHYSICALLY and EMOTIONALLY.
Spiritually
I was very very impacted by Pastor Kong when he shared the WORD last Sun. He told us how he used to rush home from school and inmersed himself in the presence of God. From his sharing, I could feel his tremendous love for God and his strong relationship with Him. His unfailing seeking of God everyday explains why he's so anointed and successful as a person. I want to be like him. I came back home constantly telling myself and God that I want to have the same kind of strong relationship with God. I know it's really time for me to be disciplined and serious in Him. It wasn't that I wasn't serious before this, but I think I can be more serious and urgent about my calling and my destiny. I want to come to a stage of enjoying God's presence everyday. Yes I admit I find it hard to come to Him everyday to seek His face. I think it's a phase that everyone will go through. However, perserverance will definitely bring us closer to God. Eventually, we will enter into His glory, and prayer will be such a joy rather than a dread. I'm motivated and determined to enter into the enjoyment stage of seeking God this time. No matter how long it is going to take for me to breakthrough, I'm not going to give up. I want to live a victorious life whereby everyday I lean on His strength. I'm tired of living a substandard life where I lived by my own strength. I'm tired of struggling in the pit. I want to get out of my own pit and keep walking in the ways of God. I want to live my best for God!!
Physically
I want to tone up my abs, arms and legs. Why? Of cos to look better! Haha! Most importantly of all, while toning up, I'll make myself stronger physically. I had been falling sick rather frequently nowadays. Probably because of my unbalanced diet and also lack of exercise. I hope to get myself to eat breakfast everyday and to exercise regularly. Hopefully by the end of this year, I'll have a nicer tone.
Emotionally
Those who know me well will know that I'm a very emotional person. I cry alot and I cry easily. Watching a touching movie will make me lose tons and tons of water. I know there is a need to control my emotions. I need to keep myself emotionally strong. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I don't want to cry anymore, but rather I shouldn't cry so easily in front of others. I have to learn to control my tears. Not just in crying, I realised I get angry easily this season of my life. Perhaps I'm not satisfied with myself and the people around me. Perhaps I didn't look at things in God's point of view. I'm a perfectionist though not to the extreme. When things do not go the way I expectedt it to be, I get angry. Was reading "Extravagant Worship" and got this from the book: "Determine to be joyful and glad regardless of the circumstances around you." This book seemed to speak to me during this season of my life. Learnt a lot from it. Get the book if you don't have one. Or borrow from me when I finish reading it.
In order to build up this 3 essential parts of my life, I know I need lots and lots of discipline in my time management. Don't be sad if I reject going out with you. This is a season that I want to build myself strong. A time for me to spend a lot of time with God. God showed me a verse last night in Jude 20:
"But you, beloved, building yourselves up on your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Spirit, keep yourselves in the love of God, looking for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ unto eternal life."
I admit that age does have a part to play, however, my inactive schedule also contributes to this tiredness. I may have run and play alot with my kids in school, but I did not work the other parts of my body. After a half day course yesterday, I decided that there is a need to tone up my body. I need to be a healthy and strong person in order to be an effective witness for Christ. My goal now is to build myself strong SPIRITUALLY, PHYSICALLY and EMOTIONALLY.
Spiritually
I was very very impacted by Pastor Kong when he shared the WORD last Sun. He told us how he used to rush home from school and inmersed himself in the presence of God. From his sharing, I could feel his tremendous love for God and his strong relationship with Him. His unfailing seeking of God everyday explains why he's so anointed and successful as a person. I want to be like him. I came back home constantly telling myself and God that I want to have the same kind of strong relationship with God. I know it's really time for me to be disciplined and serious in Him. It wasn't that I wasn't serious before this, but I think I can be more serious and urgent about my calling and my destiny. I want to come to a stage of enjoying God's presence everyday. Yes I admit I find it hard to come to Him everyday to seek His face. I think it's a phase that everyone will go through. However, perserverance will definitely bring us closer to God. Eventually, we will enter into His glory, and prayer will be such a joy rather than a dread. I'm motivated and determined to enter into the enjoyment stage of seeking God this time. No matter how long it is going to take for me to breakthrough, I'm not going to give up. I want to live a victorious life whereby everyday I lean on His strength. I'm tired of living a substandard life where I lived by my own strength. I'm tired of struggling in the pit. I want to get out of my own pit and keep walking in the ways of God. I want to live my best for God!!
Physically
I want to tone up my abs, arms and legs. Why? Of cos to look better! Haha! Most importantly of all, while toning up, I'll make myself stronger physically. I had been falling sick rather frequently nowadays. Probably because of my unbalanced diet and also lack of exercise. I hope to get myself to eat breakfast everyday and to exercise regularly. Hopefully by the end of this year, I'll have a nicer tone.
Emotionally
Those who know me well will know that I'm a very emotional person. I cry alot and I cry easily. Watching a touching movie will make me lose tons and tons of water. I know there is a need to control my emotions. I need to keep myself emotionally strong. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I don't want to cry anymore, but rather I shouldn't cry so easily in front of others. I have to learn to control my tears. Not just in crying, I realised I get angry easily this season of my life. Perhaps I'm not satisfied with myself and the people around me. Perhaps I didn't look at things in God's point of view. I'm a perfectionist though not to the extreme. When things do not go the way I expectedt it to be, I get angry. Was reading "Extravagant Worship" and got this from the book: "Determine to be joyful and glad regardless of the circumstances around you." This book seemed to speak to me during this season of my life. Learnt a lot from it. Get the book if you don't have one. Or borrow from me when I finish reading it.
In order to build up this 3 essential parts of my life, I know I need lots and lots of discipline in my time management. Don't be sad if I reject going out with you. This is a season that I want to build myself strong. A time for me to spend a lot of time with God. God showed me a verse last night in Jude 20:
"But you, beloved, building yourselves up on your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Spirit, keep yourselves in the love of God, looking for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ unto eternal life."
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Teachers' Day Dinner
Hey! I've finally manage to try to put photos up. Praise the Lord!!!
The 4 BEAUTIES of Kong Hwa School
This is the fren who always blesses me... My best fren in school!!!
Here's Sharon and I posing for the pic!!!
I hope to be the Godmother of this child I'm touching... ha!!
hey! note the lady standing next to me... no, I'm not talking about Jayne.. hee! she's a very powerful figure in school.. she scares the kids out of their life! My supervisor!!!
Yeah! We ended off this yr's Teachers' Day Dinner with these wonderful pictures... Credits to my best fren!!
The 4 BEAUTIES of Kong Hwa School
This is the fren who always blesses me... My best fren in school!!!
Here's Sharon and I posing for the pic!!!
I hope to be the Godmother of this child I'm touching... ha!!
hey! note the lady standing next to me... no, I'm not talking about Jayne.. hee! she's a very powerful figure in school.. she scares the kids out of their life! My supervisor!!!
Yeah! We ended off this yr's Teachers' Day Dinner with these wonderful pictures... Credits to my best fren!!
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
Testify to Love
Yesterday was Teachers' Day celebration.. A group of pupils performed a dance to the tune Testify To Love by AVALON. It brought back memories of the days I spent in SAJC when I 1st saw the show Touch by an Angel in SAJC's Chapel on Friday. In this particular episode, it talks about a talented songwriter who was disappointed with God as her child was dying of a disease. She lost all hope of living and her passion for composing songs. However, an angel from God appeared to her eventually and she got back her hope in God. Her child still died though, but she wrote this beautiful song to testify of God's love during the period of tough times. Take time to enjoy the lyrics. If u must, do look for the song and listen to it. It's a very "pretty" song.
Testify To Love
All the colors of the rainbow
All the voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
when words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the hope in every heart will speak
what love has done
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
when words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
All the voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
when words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the hope in every heart will speak
what love has done
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences
when words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
AVALON
Sunday, August 29, 2004
Trust and Believe
Nothing will ever go too wrong
For there is always hope in God
Trust and believe
That all's not lost
For with a cause
You were born
Rejoice! For it's a time to grow
A time to seek God, a time to pray
Cos it's not wise
To retreat and just run away
All it takes is a little faith
My dear friend
This is what I pray
Do not let the flame ever die away
But trust and believe
And don't be swayed
I'll be here with you always
And you are always in my prayer.
For there is always hope in God
Trust and believe
That all's not lost
For with a cause
You were born
Rejoice! For it's a time to grow
A time to seek God, a time to pray
Cos it's not wise
To retreat and just run away
All it takes is a little faith
My dear friend
This is what I pray
Do not let the flame ever die away
But trust and believe
And don't be swayed
I'll be here with you always
And you are always in my prayer.
Monday, August 09, 2004
God is our HEALER!!
Hey all! I wanna share of God's healing power! Those who went for service yesterday would know that Pastor Kong prayed for healing yesterday. I raised my hand and wanted people to pray for me but the bro and sis next to me have no faith to pray for me... after some time then my ex dialect church leader came to pull me to her side to pray for me. In case u don't know, I've been sick for a few days.. flu, headache and feel slightly feverish. When she prayed for me, I could sense the move of God within me.. after a while my headache and flu was gone!!! Praise the Lord!! I really feel so much better. God is great!! Thank God for His healing!
By the way, I was thinking a lot about what has been lacking in me and the CG that friends come but yet do not stay with us. Asked a few of the CG members yesterday and Ying said we, as a CG, seldom engage God in our own fellowship. Well, I do agree with her. Maybe we are not spiritual enough.. I read Deb's letter last night and it gave me an idea of where the problem lies. We all stayed in church and in the CG because God has touched our lives in a special way.. We had experienced God for ourselves so we knew He is real and He is worthy for us to continue our walk with Him. Our friends came but they did not experience God for themselves so they did not stay.. what have we done to help them experience God? Perhaps nothing, and they see no point in coming. The next answer I'm searching for is, how do we help our friends to experience God?
Someone whom I had known in Israel trip called me just now to arrange a meeting. He shared of how he ministered in Bible School.. how Pastor Mike taught them to be sensitive to the Spirit. We got to build up our own Spiritman by praying in tongues everyday. Just a walk past a person, they will be able to feel the presence of God. Just by holding the hand, we'll be able to know what the person had gone through. Yeah! We saw Pastor Mike doing all these in the services, moving in the strong power of God. Perhaps while you are reading this, you are thinking, "He is Pastor Mike, of course he is anointed to have the Word of Wisdom and knowledge and the power of deliverance." However, God has called all of us to do signs and wonders. We all have the power of God within us! God has placed in us the potential that is waiting to be released. All we need is to have faith in God and in ourselves to take a step of boldness. My friend asked me, "Did you pray for your CG members? Why not?" I know there's a sense of inadequecy in me. I don't think I can do it. I don't know how to and what to pray for them. Perhaps you are feeling the same way as me? Fear has crippled me. I've no confidence in myself. Sometimes we just need to discard all our fears and trust in faith. As long as I keep on doubtingthe God given abilities, I will not be able to minister to people effectively and I'll not be able to be an effective witness for God.
These 2 weeks that Huiling is not around, I'm kind of lost in the beginning. I begin to realise that I depended too much on her in the past. So, there's a lot of things which I do not know and I did not ask her in the past. Bro Gaoyuan told me to be hungry for my calling and to keep asking Huiling for the things which I do not know. When Huiling was away, I feel that I was thrown into the ocean with very strong currents. I got to keep on swimming against the current and my only strength comes from God. I guessed most of the time, it is only when we are put in a fix then we'll learn to trust God. I've learnt that when fear arise, all the more I got to fight AGAINST that fear. I don't run away from that fear because that will never solve the root problem. We are all overcomers in Christ Jesus!! No weapon form against us shall prosper! I don't have to give in to the devil's ploy in getting me fearful. I have already gain the victory with Jesus!!! This is God's Word. We all know His word. But do we believe and trust His Word in our own life? Are we convicted in our hearts?
Jesus said in John 14:1
"Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me."
He continued in John 14:12-14
"Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father. And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask anything in My name, I will do it."
By the way, I was thinking a lot about what has been lacking in me and the CG that friends come but yet do not stay with us. Asked a few of the CG members yesterday and Ying said we, as a CG, seldom engage God in our own fellowship. Well, I do agree with her. Maybe we are not spiritual enough.. I read Deb's letter last night and it gave me an idea of where the problem lies. We all stayed in church and in the CG because God has touched our lives in a special way.. We had experienced God for ourselves so we knew He is real and He is worthy for us to continue our walk with Him. Our friends came but they did not experience God for themselves so they did not stay.. what have we done to help them experience God? Perhaps nothing, and they see no point in coming. The next answer I'm searching for is, how do we help our friends to experience God?
Someone whom I had known in Israel trip called me just now to arrange a meeting. He shared of how he ministered in Bible School.. how Pastor Mike taught them to be sensitive to the Spirit. We got to build up our own Spiritman by praying in tongues everyday. Just a walk past a person, they will be able to feel the presence of God. Just by holding the hand, we'll be able to know what the person had gone through. Yeah! We saw Pastor Mike doing all these in the services, moving in the strong power of God. Perhaps while you are reading this, you are thinking, "He is Pastor Mike, of course he is anointed to have the Word of Wisdom and knowledge and the power of deliverance." However, God has called all of us to do signs and wonders. We all have the power of God within us! God has placed in us the potential that is waiting to be released. All we need is to have faith in God and in ourselves to take a step of boldness. My friend asked me, "Did you pray for your CG members? Why not?" I know there's a sense of inadequecy in me. I don't think I can do it. I don't know how to and what to pray for them. Perhaps you are feeling the same way as me? Fear has crippled me. I've no confidence in myself. Sometimes we just need to discard all our fears and trust in faith. As long as I keep on doubtingthe God given abilities, I will not be able to minister to people effectively and I'll not be able to be an effective witness for God.
These 2 weeks that Huiling is not around, I'm kind of lost in the beginning. I begin to realise that I depended too much on her in the past. So, there's a lot of things which I do not know and I did not ask her in the past. Bro Gaoyuan told me to be hungry for my calling and to keep asking Huiling for the things which I do not know. When Huiling was away, I feel that I was thrown into the ocean with very strong currents. I got to keep on swimming against the current and my only strength comes from God. I guessed most of the time, it is only when we are put in a fix then we'll learn to trust God. I've learnt that when fear arise, all the more I got to fight AGAINST that fear. I don't run away from that fear because that will never solve the root problem. We are all overcomers in Christ Jesus!! No weapon form against us shall prosper! I don't have to give in to the devil's ploy in getting me fearful. I have already gain the victory with Jesus!!! This is God's Word. We all know His word. But do we believe and trust His Word in our own life? Are we convicted in our hearts?
Jesus said in John 14:1
"Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me."
He continued in John 14:12-14
"Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believes in Me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father. And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask anything in My name, I will do it."
Like what Ying and Pastor Kong always say, it is not good enough to just know God and His Word. What is important is really believing in Him and applying His Word in our lives.
Wow! I've took a long time to type this out and it's very long!! Hope you are not bored reading it... Feel free to give me your comments. Help me and teach me if you can. By the way, Happy National Day!!!!!
Friday, August 06, 2004
Thanks Mic!!
I'm very grateful to Mic for helping me with this blog. Thanks for all the time and effort to make this blog SOOOOOO NICE!!!!! And thanks to all those who visit this site to add LIFE to this blog. I need your earnest prayers to keep me going.. feeling very sick now. So pls remember to keep me in your prayers. And I pray that all of us will do all we can for the CG.
Remember the times when your frens brought YOU to church? Thought of how much u've changed ever since u've became a Christian? Has God been good to u all these while? If u remember, thought about all these and God HAS been EXTRA-ordinary good and GRACEFUL towards u, don't u want your frens to know this GREAT ALMIGHTY GOD??? The things that are always stopping us from reaching our frens are our fears and assumptions that our frens may not be able to come. Whatever reasons there may be, can we just put aside our pre-conception about our frens and just invite them. There's no harm in asking. Don't be discourage when they dun wanna come. Keep asking them, keep seeking to meet their needs and keep knocking on the doors of their hearts. Our reward is in heaven!! Keep reaching out and touch their lives, little seeds of faith will be imparted to them and they will be in the kingdom of God eventually.
I'm not good in words. I hope I got my idea across. Need to go home and rest le. Pls remember to pray for Huiling and the CG. Got to go again. Bye! Love you lots lots!!!
Remember the times when your frens brought YOU to church? Thought of how much u've changed ever since u've became a Christian? Has God been good to u all these while? If u remember, thought about all these and God HAS been EXTRA-ordinary good and GRACEFUL towards u, don't u want your frens to know this GREAT ALMIGHTY GOD??? The things that are always stopping us from reaching our frens are our fears and assumptions that our frens may not be able to come. Whatever reasons there may be, can we just put aside our pre-conception about our frens and just invite them. There's no harm in asking. Don't be discourage when they dun wanna come. Keep asking them, keep seeking to meet their needs and keep knocking on the doors of their hearts. Our reward is in heaven!! Keep reaching out and touch their lives, little seeds of faith will be imparted to them and they will be in the kingdom of God eventually.
I'm not good in words. I hope I got my idea across. Need to go home and rest le. Pls remember to pray for Huiling and the CG. Got to go again. Bye! Love you lots lots!!!
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
My Dearest Faithful who had been visiting this blog..
Yes!! It's u I'm talking about... Didn't have much time to blog, but my red pen ran out of ink so I can't really do anything at the moment. I shan't write long, cos a lot of people are watching. Hmm.. I miss Huiling. How abt u?? Hahaha! Guess I'll stop here again!
Saturday, July 10, 2004
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